Crossroads

So much has happened in the last 2 months that has deserved a blog. Or maybe 2. Or 3.

My mom came to visit. We had a wonderful time. I feel so blessed that she even had the nerve to come to Juarez. A place that is known for... well, you know. We talked and laughed and she met my husband for the very first time. Although Gordo and I have been together for about 6 years now, many things had prevented my family from meeting him. She loved him, as I had expected, and I was more than thrilled to share his... greatness... with my family. Can you imagine meeting and loving and marrying your soul mate and not having the chance to introduce them to your family for 6 years? Yeah. Brutal. But the end result was everything I could have hoped it would be.

I have also been more than preoccupied with work. Transferring my license to Texas has been no small feat and last week I took "the test." I have yet to get the results to what could honestly determine the future of my entire career. Melodramatic? Slightly. When you live in Mexico and work in the US, it is imperative that you put your all into your career, whatever that may be. After seeing my husband work his ass off for $50 US a week, I cannot expect anything less than the best from myself. Seeing so many go without makes anyone suddenly grateful for US minimum wage.

The real reason I haven't blogged? Well... I've moved on. Not from this blog, but from the former Emily; The Emily that worried incessantly about immigration, and moving to Mexico, and cultural differences, and meeting my in-laws, and finding work. In the last 2 months I have accepted our hand in life. I have accepted that we can't live in the US. I have embraced border crossing and my work and our home and our life. What now? I have spent the last 6 years planning how we could be together legally. And here we are. Now what? In this time of planning all of our dreams were put on hold. All we thought about was USCIS, Sheriff Joe Arpaio, protest rallies, ifs/ands/buts. And now that have we left the United States... what are we to think about? What does one worry about or pine for?

It's time to redirect my thoughts and worries and hopes to what really matters in life; Our health, starting a family, educating ourselves, staying safe, and prospering. And so here I am, at a crossroad.